30th april 2010
The day of sorrowing and awful of me in VietNam that I haven’t seen in life. It’s the same day as the day of Vietnam nation is liberated the country, but it’s the day of me on vacation going to visit DAKLAK province, the time that I have arrived here, There are a lot of challenges and dangerous period. Because in this day, there are a lot of people they celebrate and prepare to visit the homeland, so they have made for the buses aren’t enough to go other provinces, I decided to meet one friend of me in GIALAI after that we have agreed and decided travelling down at the DAKLAK to visit some friend here, but it makes me difficultly to meet friend, because there are many causes about me and friend. I and my closedfriend have met so bad luck and there is no good luck for us, suddenly the boss of him called him back to his homeland because there is the expression work to do, so I promised with closedfriend to visit a friend overthere at DAKLAK ,I arrived at one district, it’s so difficult to me, I talked on cellphone with her so long time ,a girl hasn’t understood and never listen to anything. This situation compels me very much. I must receive everything all to lead me to that place. After that there is one message to my phone and I decide following this to DLIEYA district of DAKLAK province, I never hear before I think it the name of ethnic group district and the most in this area only the people of ethnic group. I try to meet the girl but she denies all the time and I don’t know her reason why she can’t see me. In additional I haven’t known what happens to her, instead of the real thing she has said to me as well as the friendship if I have arrived here she will receive all. But this conditional is not the same as she told me, sometimes I think she lies me and deceive by using her planning to deceive me here after that killing me. Because she meets me she makes herself never know me I don’t know what thing she is afraid that. Finally I must receive and nothing to do for me to do in DLIEYA small district in KRONGNANG city. I would like to ask about the bus back to SAIGON with her but she so difficultly to understand she turns off the phone, I know all about her house at gas station, she has good status of living in here, why she lies about it, I never care and fear about her, she will have good or bad status in my brain, sometimes she thinks wrongly and misunderstands so much, sometimes she disappointed about me because I am not the man that she hopes to visit her, that’s SAN my friend. Finally I must catch the bus by paining and sorrowing on bus running on the road. And I back to province that I have studied there, it’s so the bad luck of my holiday in 2010,I haven’t got the happiness and so serious for me, and so I couldn’t celebrate for my rest to be cheerful and get a lot of enjoyment in life of me.so it buries in my memorial, disappointing with my intention and no have all happiness and good memorial of me in DAKLAK province, I just hope that this diary of me will make her to understand and know well about my feeling for writing this recording. And one problem I never see before the people in this city look me like the enemy of them, they make me to be afraid about this area and the experience of me in DLIEYA I got it so much, it’s only small district but there isn’t the feeling of friend and friendship. Especially that is the most important thing one girl I would like to see, she turns off phone I try and try so much but cannot , I haven’t communicated with her, I would like to ask about the bus to back to SAIGON, because I ‘m afraid there isn’t any bus for me, in BUONMATHUAT,I didn’t stay overthere and I didn’t know any one. Something makes me so surprised and wonderful, strange on me, a girl I would like to see she makes like the person doesn’t know me and no activation about me, she asks me the same as she doesn’t know I arrive here and talk on phone with her already, she’s good and get a lot of skills on her I praise her the good girl and full of tactics. Almost in this situation I know she’s a daughter of parent in Gas station they’re good looking ,I think one person and maybe me and her have made this situation to be serious, etc…. in my deeply feeling I just have the feeling with her but I can’t do that because her heart and feeling never have me. And one, her feeling with my friend so it’s impossible for me. I`m only postman to send the letter for another one or everyone.
Trang I’m sorry trang so much, because I’m so pain and sad I would like to talk with you but I’m afraid that you will not say with me, now I can’t contact with you ,I try calling you everytimes and everyday but no activate from your phone, and I didn’t know using your old phone or not I don’t know ,if you don’t mind please contact me. At this time I only make the song for displaying my soul and my feeling in the deeply heart for you know it page, Nothing for me to do, I only reserve your music and listen it forever when I think of you and having feeling sad about it. I don’t know about you , you hate me or not ? I think you so hate me so much because I called to your friend and I begged to say with you ,you never care and didn’t say and communicate with me. I never forgot you, you will live in my heart all the times and forever. In the real ideal I would like to take you touring in Thailand and go looking everywhere. But now I think I am so bad luck and no chance to do that, because you so far from me, you didn’t care and never contact to me, and your phone number you do not use it and take it out from your mind , you know when I talk with you I so enjoy and be happy in mind and heart I think about the future with page you know, I never know in your heart have me or not, Remember me in your heart, you are the one of me in my brain until there is no this world in the universal of the human, always, always in ken’s heart and soul
Waiting for to hearing from page
Ken
